Teetering on inaction
Its been a while and I am numb. What was pure joy What was calm What was passion What was staying up just because What was going out and not thinking about tomorrow Why did I not honor those feelings Why did I throw them all away? Why can't I remember them? Why cant I remember what its like to be in my own body, to smile and laugh every day with my heart soaring and pouring love from every pore spilling over running downhill flowing out of me every minute of every day? Why cant i remember? Why am I not fighting for that? Do I not feel it will happen again? Do I not feel that I deserve it, or that I can make something amazing of it? These kinds of questions cant be answered. They need to be felt. Am I running away from something I dont want, or towards something I feel I deserve? Either way this is MY life. I only live it once and screw all of you if you think I should have done something different. I should do what feels right to me, not to you. I don't need to a...